July 27, 2015 at 7:08 pm #202819
Once upon a time, I was a member, and quite active. Then I disappeared for quite some time, obviously, since I had to recreate my account. I have recently left my full-time job and have a pipe dream of freelancing full-time. I have freelanced on-and-off for quite a while, but now, with plenty of time on my hands, I am floundering and having a hard time getting anything out the door, because I’ve managed to convince myself that I’m probably not good enough.
I’m hoping to find my rhythm soon, and to become active here again.
Thanks.July 27, 2015 at 7:44 pm #241691
Ashe Elton ParkerParticipant
welcome back, wrtrmaus!
The reason why you had to recreate your account is because the site moved to a new forum back in 2012, so all us regulars had to create new accounts.
Good luck with the full-time freelancing goal! I hope you’re able to shake the “not good enough” cloud well enough to write again. As a suggestion, you may try reading through your projects from years ago with a mind toward deciding which ones to work on or use as the basis of new, better projects. Whatever you do, keep in mind that writing doesn’t improve without practice (like any skill), and start putting words down on something.
.Ashe Elton Parker
Member since 1998.
Look me up on Wattpad for some of my books!July 27, 2015 at 7:56 pm #241699
Thank you for the welcome and the advice, Ashe. I have been getting some words down every day, but none of them feel strong enough to turn into a query or essay, or anything else at the moment. I think I need to push past the self-doubt and start racking up rejections for a while, so that I have even the possibility of an acceptance.July 27, 2015 at 8:27 pm #241692
Tell that critical voice to shut up! You have writing to do and no time for its whining.
Welcome back to FM!July 27, 2015 at 8:55 pm #241693
Hi wrtrmaus. Welcome back!
I hope freelancing works out for you. You really are good enough!
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http://www.djsalisburybooks.com/Dead-Wizard-s-Loot.htmlJuly 28, 2015 at 4:13 pm #241694
Yeah, that Imposter Syndrome is awful, and pretty much the only way to deal with it is to ignore it completely and work as if it’s not there.
I was reading a blog post by Kameron Hurley today, and part of it really struck a chord:Quote:The trouble is, the more writers I talk to, the more I realize that this objectivity about the “goodness” of one’s books actually gets worse as you level up, not better. That’s because as you become a technically more skilled writer, you’re able to see more of the things that aren’t working.
Yep. That feeling that you’re not getting everything right isn’t going to go away. All you can do is write and put it out there for others to judge (and hopefully pay for!).
Good luck!July 28, 2015 at 10:54 pm #241732
Oh yeah. I have a bad case of Impostor Syndrome. That voice gets really really loud!July 29, 2015 at 2:41 pm #241695
Welcome back! I agree with Erin’s thoughts on the Imposter Syndrome. Sometimes you just have to put yourself out there and see what happens.July 30, 2015 at 6:41 pm #241696
Thank you, everyone. I know I need to simply put myself out there, and see what happens. I’m just having trouble hitting “send” on anything at the moment.August 1, 2015 at 5:34 pm #241783
You can do iiiiiiit.
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